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Sunday Snooze

I have not slept in past 8 am in weeks. I guess it’s safe to say I’ve officially made the switch back to daytime living. While I love early mornings (and oh how I’ve missed them!) It has been a little embarrassing going home at 11pm on a Friday the past two weeks because I couldn’t stop yawning in my friend’s faces. Balance people. I’m working on it. However, today I had the joy of sleeping in until 11 am. I haven’t felt so refreshed (or so sore) for a while.

Yesterday my parents and I traveled to York, Pennsylvania to visit my cousin and her husband. They’ve just moved into a new house and were having a housewarming party to celebrate. While I’m not a fan of spending 8 hours in a car in one day, I did get a lot of reading done. I finished one book and made some headway on the second before my father deemed it my turn to drive. I ended up driving the last 3 hours home but by the time he made me switch we were already to Maryland so I knew most of the route home (yay for many trips to DC lately). The late night and the exhaustion of driving made me sleep in so late this morning.

This morning has been wonderful though. I haven’t had a day completely to myself in a while. Although I’m pretty sure my roommate is home, she worked last night so I have a good hour or two left before she wakes up. It’s only a little weird that the only one I have communicated with today is my cat right? No it isn’t 2 PM already…But I’ve been pretty productive. Even though I have yet to get out of my pajamas, I’ve done a few loads of laundry and paid a couple of bills that I got in the mail last week and just kept forgetting to pay. That’s what weekends are for, right?. I’ve also started to catch up on Orange is the New Black and plan to go back to reading once I’m finished with my internet trolling.

I love having a day like this every once in a while because I’ve filled up my weekdays with workouts, work, studying for my GRE, and catching up with friends. I start class again at the end of next week so I need to especially cherish these lazy days now as they’ll soon be filled with homework.

Afternoon vibes

I hurried home from work today to try and get some GRE studying done. By the time I had gotten to Mudhouse, however, my intentions had changed. It probably had something to do with the excessive noise in the coffeehouse (must be afternoon vibes) but the music was pretty loud and not really conducive to studying. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not complaining. I’m quite enjoying the change of plans. I haven’t picked a date yet for my GRE so I’m not really in a rush. I’m hoping to take it sometime this fall but I still have a whole year before I can apply to graduate school anyway so I’m taking my time picking a date.

Sitting in this coffeehouse makes me realize how much I’ve missed writing. I actually spent a bit of time daydreaming today about how much I missed blogging and just writing in general. I haven’t written in my journal in ages and I have a feeling I would cringe thinking about where my life was if I reread the last entry I wrote. So I think my goals for next month will include a more regular posting schedule. 

I’ve started waking up before work to get a workout in and I feel like I’m so much more productive when I do that. Although the struggle is real getting out of bed, I’m hoping that it will help me enforce a more regular routine. One of the main reasons I chose to take my current job was because I hated the inconsistency of working night shifts and only knowing my schedule 6 weeks at a time. Now that my body is able to sleep at night (most nights) I feel like the change to waking up one extra hour shouldn’t be too complicated. Now, at 5 pm I’m able to say I’ve had a really productive day and I still have a few hours left before bed time. I can get used to this day shift thing. 

Summer Changes

This summer has been busy and I’m not going to lie, I’ve sort of forgotten about my WordPress blog. I started this with the intention of chronicaling my life and giving myself an outlet for stress/gathering my thoughts. I really struggle with taking the time to decompress so hopefully I’ll get back into the swing of things here.

In the past few months I have had some pretty large changes. I started two(!) new jobs, ended a relationship, and started planning for graduate school. I think it’s fair to say I deserve a break for the hiatus. The transition from working night shifts into a 9-5 job has been great. I enjoy my new job but it definitely isn’t forever. I’m just happy to have my sleep schedule back. I’ve read that it can take up to half the time you worked night shifts for your body to adjust again. While I hope that’s not entirely the case, I can say that I didn’t start feeling like a normal person again until about a week or two ago. I also started working at a vineyard, partially for fun and partially to fund my drinking habits. While I don’t drink nearly as much as I used to, free tasting anywhere I go is a nice perk.

As far as the relationship goes, I’ll keep that private since I’m still working out my feelings on the matter. I just know that it wasn’t the right one for me; not at this stage in my life. Especially since I’m not quite sure which step I’m taking next. I’m currently taking some prerequisite courses for graduate school and I can see where I would like to take my career but I really don’t know where those opportunities will open up for me. I’m also considering just up and moving from Charlottesville in the near(ish) future and I don’t want to be tied down right now. I also don’t feel like I’m ready for anything serious. My heart is just not there yet. And I have to keep reminding myself that THAT’S OK.